Where the heck has the time gone? How did I go from writing my birth story to having a 4 month old in the blink of an eye? Can I just say one thing? I am OBSESSED with my baby. It's unhealthy how much I think/worry/hold/kiss her. Like so obsessed I'm ready to do the whole pregancy thing again just so I can keep this whole having a baby to obsess over going on and on forever. Ideally I would just keep popping one out so I never have to not have a baby in my arms. HATED being pregnant, LOVE having a baby. The struggle is real guys. But really home girl is just about the best thing ever. Pretty much better than ice cream (although I gave her a taste of mine the other day and I swear to you she said "mmmm" finally someone who understands what it's like to need ice cream to survive..Jordan obviously missed that memo.)

Life has been so good to us lately. I graduated nursing school on May 8th, had a baby May 22nd, took and passed!! my boards for nursing school sometime in early June (that month is kind of a blur to me), took my 6 week old to lake Powell the beginning of July, accepted a job the end of July at Jordan valley as a nursery/NICU nurse and left my job of 6 years at IMC, started said job the beginning of August, and now here we are mid-September and I'm sitting at my new job at 3:30am with my new co-workers and still in shock that I got here so fast. Isn't it funny how life works?

So now a little update on life (and by life I mean the 12lb creature that is our life now). Like I said we are obsessed with our Nova girl. We got a winner with this one. Champion breastfeeder, sleeps through the night, such a cuddle bug, and has these big blue eyes that I swear can get you to do anything and everything her little baby brain can think up for you to do. But because everyone knows life isn't as perfect as it sounds...she fights the nursing cover now, so breastfeeding in public is a joke. I'm basically turning into one of those moms who whips the boob out with no shame just so I can stop the insane hunger shrieks. Those draw more attention than my nipple most days.
Sleeping through the night happens only if we co-sleep. I'm going to have a 16 year old in our bed, but if it means we get 9 hours uninterrupted sleep I'll do it. We are getting better about sleeping in the crib, but it's a work in progress.
Cuddle bug babies seem like the best thing ever, but cuddle bug babies also don't let you put them down to get anything done. I swear the Moby wrap is my bff these days. If I didn't have Moby, I wouldn't even get my hair brushed most days. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death. Adjusting to motherhood doesn't happen overnight. It's a work in progress for everyone involved. We are learning as we go, and through trial and error I WILL figure this out someday...hopefully. For now I'll just enjoy the cuddles, giggles, high pitched screams, toe grabs, diaper blow outs, middle of the night fussiness, and knowing that this tiny human loves me despite me not having a clue what I'm doing.


And now what you have all been waiting for...pictures!